Em
Em..
I miss you soo much...
Everytime that i sleep i want to wake up in Eden, and look into your eyes, and feel your perfume.
The life here is soo hard..
If i commit suicide i will go to your side? When my mission will end?
Sorry guys... miss her... i want to share with you..
I cant stay with Em, Eden needs her.. and you guys need me.
2 months ago i never, NEVER believed my life can turn this way.... sometimes i want to this never happen, sometimes i feel better to know what really happens outside.
I miss you guys.
hugs.
I miss you soo much...
Everytime that i sleep i want to wake up in Eden, and look into your eyes, and feel your perfume.
The life here is soo hard..
If i commit suicide i will go to your side? When my mission will end?
Sorry guys... miss her... i want to share with you..
I cant stay with Em, Eden needs her.. and you guys need me.
2 months ago i never, NEVER believed my life can turn this way.... sometimes i want to this never happen, sometimes i feel better to know what really happens outside.
I miss you guys.
hugs.
Hi mate I can give you some feedback on this, as Pak is an advanced race you know, well at a point of development you pass through and stay in the 'mesh' you essentially are a 'light being' this is a hig form of advancement.
ReplyDeleteTo these guys what we see as 'death' is like walking through a door, the best I can explain (or understand) they look at 'suicide' kind of in the same way we see 'vanity' kind of like trying to 'cut ahead' .
Of course no one can, but that attempt can be interpreted that way, every time you are non physical you are in the place of these beings.
Pak can port you to a new container and obviously we must have worked out some races port themselves perpetually and 'remember' for 'infinity'
However you are still bound by the math of thd universe of light, where you are so a suicide is not the best option, but that is a different thing to making a choice to stay, ( im sure you know )
Stay well friend.
Kolin,
DeleteI have no words to thank all your support.
You've always been my counselor, my friend from the beginning.
Thanks for everything, I will continue reading everything you post, and each paragraph reflecting deeply.
A huge hug.
any time also thank you, you have helped me greatly and hopefully we can all help Pak and his people.
Deleteit doesn't take much logic, of course, to figure out that if the wider galaxies ran in a similar way to the way earth functions earth would either:
1. not be here or 2. human would know about it. (in a not good way)
so the aim is to be a functional helpful member, i'm positive humans can do it both in eden and other place like here.
look forward to hearing your next post.
thanks for the kind words.
Hello my friend.
ReplyDeleteI am here for you. Please fight these feelings about suicide, I care about you and I care about what it would do to your family.
I know that you would like to be with Em permanently, but please be rest assured that you WILL be with her permanently after everything has finished naturally; I know you desire greatly to be with her but please be patient, the time you have left here on earth naturally will be tiny compared to all the time you will get to spend with Em in Eden - you just need to wait.
I am also worried that if you did commit suicide then you would fail your mission, I believe that there is reason for you to remain here otherwise Pakaol would have just taken you away on that first day - but he didn't - and he is far more intelligent than I can imagine so I know that there is good reason for you to stay.
Please do not consider suicide as an option because you could always request that Pakaol takes you to Eden permanently once your mission here is complete, that way you never have to experience death at all.
I am holding you close to my heart and in my thoughts and prayers.
BIG hugs!
I want one day to know you, and give you a hug, my friend.
DeleteThank you for everything, always with me, i'll remember of everything for the rest of my life.
I lost Em a lot, but i guess she's on Earth, in the next few posts I'll need some help to understand quite what pakaol told me.
I believe she came back, or she has a twin sister or something.
My mind is charging about roswell, finally in the next post tomorrow I will talk about .
Tomorrow we will have a long post because of my delay, I should post today, but I got a visit ... I feel much better, i can walk back, but cant go to the sun.. but i can eat now.
Thanks for everything.
A huge hug.
Thank you Tunt, me too. It means a lot to me!
DeleteI'm glad to hear that you're feeling a bit better and eating again :)
I'll look forward to reading your post tomorrow.
Can you please tell me how to pronounce Pakaol's name correctly? I want to make sure I am saying it right.
Is it said like: Paka-ol, or Pa-kaol, or Pa-ka-ol, or differently?
Thank you
Hello my best friend.
DeleteWiley call Pak saying like: Pa-kaol.
Em call Pak like: Paka-ol.
I directly talking to him say Paka-ol, like Em... I guess for him doesnt matter ahhahaha
Thank you my friend,
DeleteIt seems I'm more concerned that I say Pakaol's name correctly than he is. ahahaha!
Hugs :)
I hope you're having a great day and I'm very glad to hear that you've been feeling a lot better!!
well, while we are waiting to possibly go a little to confirmation of my long standing assumption that most of the qsouls on earth are proxy carrying the direct or indirect guilt of millions of infractions against other qsouls which includes of course mass murder.
ReplyDeletewe may as well delve into a few other aspects:
in reference to what you may have learned here this is an interesting section of information and gives one a small deference to the value of variant DNA.
https://youtu.be/X028IGLRk4A
you will note the results of the dna test, i have know idea of these ladies were 'eden' locals as the gent mentions nothing of the key qsoul pattern in the iris, but never the less interesting.
other point is just a small point to think about 'time' dont forget this planet earth is out on the edge of the galaxy, time moves different here the closer you go in towards the center you have a little of the effect similar if you had seen then movie 'interstellar' essentially the huge mass at the center of the galaxy that 'black hole' effects in the same way comparative as you head in towards the galaxy center.
so for us the war has been over for 1000s of 'years' (a spin around out little sun) (on the edge of the galaxy) for others it might have been yesterday it might not even be over...
hey Tunt you said you think Em might have a twin sister or something, why do you think so? i'm asking because i did more research on Madeline McCann (thanks to Dnm's finding) , and she happens to have younger twin siblings 1 is a girl named Amelie. Coincidence? Also 'Em' could literally be the letter 'M' for Madeline?
ReplyDeletejust an idea.
Hello Openmind!
DeleteVery interesting... but how can Em be Madeleine with like 25 years old? Sound strange... but, apparently, Madeleine was a bit like Em, i really need some simulation about this... (see Madeleine with 25 years Old ) to faint. hahaha
But your comment was very incredible. Thank you OpenMindxo!
No problem Tunt! & yes a simulation of aging would probably be pretty helpful, (if anyone reading this with skills to do this, please be my guest haha!)
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